What have I done...
>> Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I'd never have thought it'd come to this... I hate myself, I hate my life... I hate what I've become... I'm sorry... I don't know how else to describe what I feel... Self-hatred, agony, contempt, spite, pain, sorrow, solitude... There's just too much negativity in the cocktail spinning in my head... I don't know what to do...
12 comments:
1) Ever wonder if you enjoyed all this pain on some level?
2) You gotta find your rock, or a positive point/idea/thing/person with which to hold on to while refocusing your thoughts and life. All is not lost, and time is the greatest numbing agent of all.
But then again... what do I know right?
Or I could just come over and knock some sense into you again :p
all i have to say is ...why do you put yourself through this it is an important thing to be happy with your life. a good friend of mine not long ago hung himself but when they found him he had his hand in the rope meaning he wanted to live and i found out that day that he recieved a message that his life was going to change because his dream job football player was an option it could have saved him but i guess it was too late
I know very well what it means... is the same thing going on me in this last year...
It's Hard to say,it's hard to explain to those that believe life has always something good... they keep saying that it will be better in future, but there is no one that can grant it for you.
I hate my self too, what I am, what I always been and even what i could be.
I keep going on being kind with the others, hiding my true feelings but still wishing someone would notice how I really feel... and sometimes I ask myself if it will ever end.
I wonder if it is possible to keep going on having nothing but hopes, will at least those last hopes come true... I don't know... time will tell. This what i think.
PS sorry if made some mistakes, english's not my language at all.
u should be ashmed of urself for making people kill dragons how fucking dare u....u fucking piece of shit how about u go kill ur self stupid emo dragons wil eat u alive
bitch
o wine some more go suck on a dick u emo fag
Is it because.....is it because you put everything you ever had into something you ever knew and you somehow lost that something and now you don't want to make any decision that ever comes infront of you?
Poured with self-hated because everything you do is wrong, self-damning because the easy life you had you thought was hard, because now you've failed yourself, now you've failed everything...
If it is, then me and you...we're in this together.
Hey can I use like, one sentence from this??? I am making a story (I will not publish it... just making it for fun) and I want to use like only one SENTENCE. please? :) PS. My story is called the power within.
Err sure? Exactly what line are you looking at?
I know the feeling..
Believe me!
I wanted to kill myself!
I thought i could never feel happiness again, but then one day i felth happiness..
Then i moved away, from this bad place i lived in, i've been happy ever since
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Feelings don't run away from you
you run away from them
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